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Sunday, 10 May 2009

  • 新生兒的味道


    去年九月，我家林小朋友去內地做宣傳的時候，突然剪了一    個超級短髮，美其名為龐克，實際上像個傻仔一樣。那時候，我才認識他不足三個月，一直都習慣了帥氣偶像的他，開學之際看到這個顛覆審美傳統的髮型，頓時感到自己被他包裝所騙，吐血三升。當然，後來我逐漸變成他毀容爛面也無所謂的超級親媽，此乃後話。

    那時候，他在他的網誌裡很隱晦的寫了，剪頭髮的原因是因為不想再以偶像的姿態示人。希望大家專注於他的歌聲和實力。剪了頭髮，他覺得好像拋棄了甚麼似的，一身輕鬆。那片網誌的題目就是「新生兒的味道」。

    前面鋪墊太長了啦（笑）。

    在五感裡面，覺得自己的聽覺和嗅覺最靈敏。視覺最差，不但有近視，而且重要人物在面前三呎走過也可以毫無反應。氣味會讓我想起很多，尤其喜歡機場的氣味，法國酸麵包的麵粉香和橙子皮的甘芳。媽媽剛去澳洲的時候，常常會睡在媽媽的床上，用被子蓋著自己，讓媽媽那洗髮水和手霜的味道輕輕哄我入睡。人生中，這是第一次無法在媽媽身邊跟她慶祝母親節，可惜現在媽媽的床已經沒有半點她的氣味了。

    說那麼多，其實就是今天陪爸爸去買雜貨（這三個月和爸爸相處的時間激增），然後在化妝部門看到一支強生的嬰兒乳霜。打開樣板的蓋子，嗅了一下，立刻買了下來。這是我小時候的味道呀。這是我小時侯，每天媽媽幫我擦，我都掙扎著逃開的味道呀。這是弟弟小時候，媽媽幫他清潔好，我抱著他那個味道呀。新生兒乾淨的味道，裡面有很多的愛和保護。

    回家，洗了個澡，然後把乳霜塗在手上，再把雙手合攏在鼻子上，深呼吸。

    媽媽，我真的好想你。母親節快樂！

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Saturday, 09 May 2009

  • Chair '09

    I've awakened to the ugliness that is Ed Westwick's face, but I'll be darned if I am not still 110% enamored with the angstiness (angstyness?) that is Chuck and Blair from GG. It's almost (almost) like something out of an old movie.

    C: You look like you could use a cocktail.
    B: *shakes empty cocktail glass* You're too late.
    C: *small laugh*
    B: Wow.
    C: What.
    B: It's the first true laugh I've gotten from you in awhile.

    C: Listen, Blair.
    B: No, me first. Nate's waiting for me to give him my answer.
    C: I heard.
    B: But you know what's stopping me? I can't give him an answer while I am waiting for you to answer mine. The one I asked you forever ago. What are we, Chuck?

    C: Blair-
    B: Last fall you said we couldn't be together. And I believed you. But every time I tried to move on, you're right there, acting like-
    C: Acting like what?
    B: Like, maybe you just want me to as unhappy as you are.
    C: I would never wish that on anyone. I would want you to be happy.
    B: Then look down deep, into the soul I know you have, and tell me if what you feel for me is real. Or if it is just a game. If it's real, then we'll figure it out. All of us. But if it's not, then please, Chuck, just let me go.

    C: It's just a game. I hate to lose. You're free to go.
    B: Thank you.

    S: Chuck, why did you just do that?
    C: Because I love her, and I can't make her happy.

    SO SAPPY. YET TEARS ARE SO CARTHATIC. NOW, BACK TO WORK.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yohd6ULPFGo&feature=related

     

Thursday, 07 May 2009

  • Trapped in House With Tons to Do but No Motivation


    In addition to all the Japanese doramas I have to catch up with (this season: Smile, My Sister, The Quiz Show, Boss), my life is currently DOMINATED by those people who upload episodes of US series two hours after they air in the US. Thanks a lot, jackasses!

    People I Support: ALLISON. JT. MARGIE/LUKE. SALOME. CHUCK/BLAIR.

    Monday: The Amazing Race 14
    Tuesday: Gossip Girl
    Wednesday: The Daily Show (all week's episodes, so two hours!)
    Thursday: ANTM and MMAS
    Friday: Survivor

    All these series(es) are reaching the end of their seasons, which means the episodes are becoming BETTER THAN EVAH. Also, I'd like to say I take the weekends off, but truth be told, that's when I catch up with all of my j-doramas, esp. since they all air on Thursday (Boss), Friday (Smile), Saturday (The Quiz Show) and Sunday (My Sister). PLUS, I watch the original videos on College Humor and occasionally, The Onion News Network. And I also take the time to read reviews of the shows I watch. GAH. Need to turn Internets off. Will go to other places where Internets are not available and STUDY.

    Oh, and you know what being trapped in a house for hours on end would also give you?

    mememe2

    Sudden intense narcissism. Apparently, not narcissistic enough to want to fix that extremely yellow-tinged photo though.

Tuesday, 07 April 2009

Monday, 06 April 2009

  • 在天堂唱歌

    阿桑

    一個女人，34歲
    應該在做甚麼呢？
    現代人都遲婚，藝人更是遲婚，所以大概還是醉心自己工作中吧．
    沒有想到，一個人默默對抗病魔半年，最後輸掉了

    我一個人吃飯旅行到處走走停停
    也一個人看書寫信自己對話談心

    這幾句歌詞，聽多少遍都會心痛
    原來這世界有很多人跟我一樣啊
    嘴巴上說喜歡一個人走，心裡卻渴望著朦朧的一個歸處
    在《葉子》之前，我沒有聽過任何台灣女歌手的歌
    認識阿桑的契機也是因為一個日劇的PV

    曾經看過SHE上節目，憲哥問：阿桑呢？
    那時候才發覺，對啊，好久沒有見過這丫頭了
    原來人們都這麼善忘
    感動過你的人都可以隨便拋棄
    就像我在電影博客裡看到有人懷緬Heath Ledger
    下面留言卻還有人罵不要神化他
    來吧，why don't we discuss something more fun?

    2009年4月4日，本該是Heath Ledger的三十歲生日
    2009年4月6日，阿桑因為乳癌末期，病逝於台北

    這些藝術上的天使們，我想我不僅僅是失去你

    阿桑，一路走好
    風吹起落下的葉子
    命運卷走枯竭的生命
    在離開的地球的過程中
    身邊應該還有許多祝福陪伴著你
    飄飛往更美好的旅途

     

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